Filling my tummy with ice cold plain water now.....feel dehydrated still....almost one bottle gone....hmmm, is it the cigarettes i smoked?lol...guess not,most probably i'm just damn thirsty today....weird me...

Think i'm feeling weirder by the minute...just realised i had taken a picture of the stars and the moon sometime back....was admiring it just....hmm,tried editing it but,hey think i need to brush up on my editing skills......

Thoughts about studying,future work/career,family....just all started invading my vast but tiny mind now......i can't just keep seeing my friends studying,working for a better future and i'm here sitting at my labtop,blogging.......omg....am i lazy or am i just not bothered about it all.....

Was online back then with Ah Xian and Thomas.....hey guys!Didn't mean to just go offline......suddenly this thoughts just hit me hard in my face....sudden mood swing....recently i just can't seem to shake it off....apologies to u'll....

Sigh....i know i'm not the only person in this world who is facing problems or issues about work,studies or watever other issues.......but,hey guess i'm human too...and now that i had resigned from my previous job.........and i'm so fricking free now.....i actually feel lost,be it whether i'm home or out.......

Knowing that i may be doing food business with my dad is one thing......but i just don't see a bright future infront of me.....do i want to be an "O" level holder all my life??....frankly,i don't!!!!
Yet i am uncertain of what i want....be what i wish to pursue in studies.....to what i want to achieve.....other than giving my parents a good life when they grow old.......i'm quite uncertain about what i want.....be it work,studies,lifestyle,relationships.....funny how the brain works...sickening.......why am i even typing so much bullshit here......

Right now i'm listening to trance music.....hmmm......sounded so different the last time i hear them......supposed to be nice and smoothing yet now it so plain to me.......own a bike,a transport....yet no place to go......big question mark on my head.......intially taking bike licence so that i could go rounding to places.......yet now i'm lost even with a fricking 2A bike........arghhh....vexed vexed........hey Ming!Pls wake up and stop thinking thinking thinking,even though it's a Virgo's fucking trait.....why the hell i am made a Virgo Male!!!!??

I don't gain any things from my trait....nothing but unnessecary troubles and thoughts......

Went to Jurong Hill just now...alone...thought of getting some fresh air....fricking sky had to go dark red with those damn lightnings above my head.........saw an old couple up at the lookout tower......damn do they look loving at their age........wonder will i ever end up as they are.....why can't my parents be like them........fuck with the quarrels and nothing but quarrels.......can't poeple appreciate peace and quiet......don't understand.......23yrs of living and i don't understand it still..........just because they can't see eye to eye.....doesn't they have to scold vulagrities.......
.........Stayed there for awhile....left for Jurong Point to look at magazines and it had to rain!....stucked at JP....stared at my wife being drenched......went arcade hopping.....bored....that's why i hate walking around places alone.....so damn bored....soon it stop raining....wipe my wife and left for home....supposed to mit up with YS for kopi,but cancelled due to the fricking rain........sigh......reached hme.....and my brain did the walking by itself again......someone please knock me down when you see me riding on the road.....i will appreciate if you knock me dead.....not half dead k...........else no insurance claim........thanks in advance to the kind souls that will knock me.....

P.S. Out.....lousy night...