Time, 0113hrs, on a windy night, with the sky partly filled with pinkish clouds up above. Sitting down on a wooden platform, high above the sea and land, with the seabreeze blowing hard.....with a close friend by the side.

Knowing that you have problems on your mind, that you need an answer to the problems, that you need a shoulder to lean on, a warm hug from a friend, and the stars in the sky....

......Yet, there wasn't any stars to brighten your day or shine a light during your despair or even open up a path for you to take, a path to end all your troubles and thoughts, and make a chose you never will regret, that will lead you to your happy ever after.

......Being a friend i could provide you a warm hug, a shoulder to lean on.Yet, it's just not possible on my part, the weight on me is just too much to bring myself to do those simple things anymore.

~~I tried so hard in the beginning, the start, to hold back.....hold back cause of my promise, a promise i made and shall keep.Still in the finale, the end, i'm in the cirlce of uncertainties and misunderstandings. Should i be even holding or should i just let go, two saddam don't co-exist, mental thoughts are meant to be stronger....yet pushing the limits of my physical actions...~~

~~~~~Is what i'm doing now, till the day i lose the battle and admit defeat~~~~~

Having said what's needed to be said and what's not, i'm still fighting the unknown battle deep within me, an emotional battle or a physical battle.....It's my battle alone.

~~~~~When will this battle end, when will i love again, when will there be peace in me, when will you ever be happy and carefree as you are, being yourself, being myself, knowing whats worth the commitment and loving who you love most, with your heart & soul.....believing and trusting yourself that, you are you and what u want in life~~~~~

~~Amid all, hiding my inner self seems tiring but a challenge, worth the fight and tolerance~~