Wokeup today,gave Huixian a morning call for her workshop......went back to sleep for a little while....feeling wore out....

......worst of all...wokeup again to see my parents quarrelling....damn it.....why does my mum like to give my dad those kind of fucking attitudes....thinking she's so good, everybody owes her a million.....still thinking like a small kid....naive and stubborn till this age........looking back at the way she treat this family......fuck!!!....she has no rights to say those fricking words out from her mouth!!......."you don't hire me, i haven't wash face, don't ask me do things....i don't depend on your money....."...........fuck this sentence!!!How the hell is feeding you?!Who the fucking hell,fucking idiot who took you in again when you came knocking on the door, the door that you abandoned for months!!??!!!Who are the fricking idiots that cried endless tears for your disappearance!!!??!!!............yet you are bitting back at those who thought you had changed for the better, who wanted to give you another last chance.......to be together...as a family.........but damned..........think you had destroyed every little last hope in our hearts........right now, my dad tells me about what he's going to do when things are on track........and i don't blame him at all......though it's disappointing....yet, you forced him and me, into it............where the hell would someone go around telling everybody living in the same area about......"i'm feeding him, he is depending on me, i work till very tiring"........fuck you!!!.......we are working like fuck for this broken family, full of scars!!!....you are working and creating troubles outside.....and spending it on someone else then!!!!..........what makes you think that it's right for you to say that sentence?!!.......you are NOT FIT!.......

..........coming home now, you still dare to give us that kind of fucking attitude face....thinking you are fucking right....and like we owe you!!....damn it.......what the fuck had we done to deserve your nonsense.....do you think i like seeing you all quarrel.....fuck!It's really making me burst.....i really want to shout out now........sigh.......fucking family i have........hate it....hate it to the core now.....really felt like going out...yet im feeling lost.......smoking again after so long......my brain's going dry soon.........im so fucking sick and tired of all.....showing you our care for you....yet you treat them like dirt.....big FUCK OUT TO YOU!!!!!MAY YOU CARRY ON LIVING IN YOUR FAIRY TALE LOVE WORLD THEN!!!!!!...........

~~~Sorry about this blog entry.....~~~