Feeling wide awake from the long night out, reaching home after, sighing at the fact that i'm home again. Not because i hate being home, but the fact that i miss the times out, seeing that smile that could brighten my whole day, the laughter that lingers in me still, knowing that the problems are still lingering still, deep in that person's mind, preventing those smiles and laughter from emerging freely.

Deep within me, my heart, or soul they call, i feel delighted, happy and contented just to see those, able to be a companion, being there.

Going to have a Dim Sum session again with my parents later on, hope i don't fall asleep on the dining table. I could just catch some rest now, but choosing not to, staying up to think of the lingering thoughts, not wanting to put an end to it, not wanting to wake up and lose that feeling. Weird but true enough, i treasure the feeling.

...........feeling tired by the seconds, yet im still keeping vigilant and awake, not wanting those sleepy eyes to shut, making my fingers do the walking on my labtop, typing what they want to say, what i want to say........listening to the songs on my labtop, cleansing my ears with music and lyrics.........looking out, i see dark clouds high above, in clusters, rain is what they will bring forth, a cold day ahead, hoping that person will have a good rest from the thoughts running in the mind.....feeling warm from inside, not being afraid of the coldness outside............

~~Waking to a better day is what i asked for, for that speacial you, to be able to feel what you want to feel, expressing what you truely, eagerly long for and treasuring it and having them returned to you, with or without my presence............feeling that my wish may come true soon,that one last wish, don't hestiate, stop preventing it now please ~~