On the very verge of losing my right to ride.....losing my most treasured passion.....losing my cool....losing my mind....pondering and pondering over the same fucking issue....can't anyone tell me a more comfirm or definite answer to my questions.....blame myself for doing what i did....no one else....losing it, is almost the same as losing part of my life.....damn it...feel so vexed now!!....just finished washing my dream.....looking at it, makes me sigh and sigh deep inside....feeling like a complete idiot, looking back at my foolishness....even now as i blog, i'm feeling fucked up......why can't my mind stop thinking!?!....SheeeKS!.....................................................................

..........................can't imagine life without it, without my passion for it......

~~Hate my actions, hate my luck~~