As usual, i'm wide awake now after only mere hours of sleep, enough to make me feel refreshed and energetic again......started my labtop and decided to blog down my thoughts and feelings....

Right this instance, i feel like "How i wish i could turn back time"........meaning of it anyone?
No definite right or wrong answer, no good or bad outcome, depends on how every individual's thoughts and mindset. To me, turning back time, there's tons of to change, actions to be taken, words to be said, initiative to be taken, moments to just step back and cherish, goals to set, advise to be seek and taken into considerations, dropping that precisous tear when it's meant to be seen.......telling a person "I Love You", from the bottom of my heart, not fearing the outcomes or the stares from others around.......silent love, a kind of love that's not meant to be shown, only to be showered upon, not to be returned.

Telling myself this, "Is this my life, the life i want to lead, the path to be taken as it is now?".


Not knowing when the silence will be broken, only knowing the hard fact, time can never be turned back, only to be shown in the back of my mind, not knowing what the front may lead to, i'm knocking on doors, and at times i'm skipping doors infront of me, closing those behind me.........
Will things ever work out in my instance,why do i keep hoping for others and not self!!!Starting to hate myself for being such a coward and a loser!!!Daammn...... -.-"
Dearest weather.......why are you feeling down again as you are yesterday?.......i miss the sunny side of you, rather be scorched then being drenched, please stop tearing so much and start shinning!!

Out to my English teachers' house then.....hope it's not another 39hrs of life without slumber!LoL....well, i don't really mind it though.....Don't rain!!!!!